December 26, 2008
You
'Be calm - love me -
today - yesterday -
what tearful longings for
you - you - you -
my life - my all - farewell,
Oh continue to love me -
never misjudge the faithful heart,
of your beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.'
Ludwig Van Beethoven
today - yesterday -
what tearful longings for
you - you - you -
my life - my all - farewell,
Oh continue to love me -
never misjudge the faithful heart,
of your beloved.
Ever thine.
Ever mine.
Ever ours.'
Ludwig Van Beethoven
December 10, 2008
November 27, 2008
twenty one
i've learn :
// that awesome sweetness won't stay forever, but longing, urge for cravings are permenent pain in the arse. *sigh*
// that even being with nature alone can make you smile.
// the cutest, nottiest kiddo can make you go goo-goo-gerigitan-ness-tahap-ultimate
// that put-ting can be so...erm, lets just say, golf ARE awesome. heh.
// that trillions of ka-la-oke-ing sessions can make you happy
// that watching sunset with different people, can be so endearing
// that mango shake can be an addictive drugs too!
so yeah, i wish that i captured all those "Kodak moments". there are so many things to do, so many words unsaid. time past so fast that next year is just around the corner. i've met alot of beautiful people, and they still are, the best i've ever had.
// that awesome sweetness won't stay forever, but longing, urge for cravings are permenent pain in the arse. *sigh*
// that celebrations of joy are always memorable. heh.
// that "malang nda bebau". god knows. the highest point of "total-loss" in my life.
// that even being with nature alone can make you smile.
// the cutest, nottiest kiddo can make you go goo-goo-gerigitan-ness-tahap-ultimate
// that put-ting can be so...erm, lets just say, golf ARE awesome. heh.
// that trillions of ka-la-oke-ing sessions can make you happy
// that watching sunset with different people, can be so endearing
// that mango shake can be an addictive drugs too!
so yeah, i wish that i captured all those "Kodak moments". there are so many things to do, so many words unsaid. time past so fast that next year is just around the corner. i've met alot of beautiful people, and they still are, the best i've ever had.
i'll be missing you both so much!
i love you
November 11, 2008
what is ?
Through it all I've made my mistakes,
I'll hold on to this,
I know what I did and how so,
I won't let this go..
What you will find ?
I'll hold on to this,
I know what I did and how so,
I won't let this go..
What you will find ?
October 20, 2008
R.I.P
Marooned amidst a sea of marble crosses, you rest, in peace now.
Fond memories carved by crafted hand, etched deep in gilded gold, forsake you.
Players on a painted stage performed their ritual role.
Poisoned promises, masquerades of love.
They took what you could give, then left.
Abandoned and alone, you held your own, until the birth.
Then drop, by bright red drop, so she could live. You passed.
And as you did, the crimson flow of life coursed through her veins.
Death, vanquished by survival.
The mind masks the spirit spilling out.
You sleep, she misses, I mourn.
On better days, I hold the helm, while she rests her childish heart upon a simple cross, that guides us both across the tidal waves of life.
White beacon, buoyed in stormy seas, deliver us from evil.
- Marty Kay
God bless.
Fond memories carved by crafted hand, etched deep in gilded gold, forsake you.
Players on a painted stage performed their ritual role.
Poisoned promises, masquerades of love.
They took what you could give, then left.
Abandoned and alone, you held your own, until the birth.
Then drop, by bright red drop, so she could live. You passed.
And as you did, the crimson flow of life coursed through her veins.
Death, vanquished by survival.
The mind masks the spirit spilling out.
You sleep, she misses, I mourn.
On better days, I hold the helm, while she rests her childish heart upon a simple cross, that guides us both across the tidal waves of life.
White beacon, buoyed in stormy seas, deliver us from evil.
- Marty Kay
God bless.
October 15, 2008
October 14, 2008
tell - t . i . m . e
have you ever felt that you were someone else when one gives compliment to you for nothing?
have you ever felt that the truth doesn't really matter anymore?
the adrenaline rush and thrill, all you have to do, just nodded and agree.
it was suppose to be happy.
it was meant to be happy.
tell me,
how would you be in two places at one time?
tell me,
how could you be so gracefully in joy and tormented at the same time?
tell me,
how did it happen?
tell me,
where did things went wrong?
I am grateful. Thank god! Im out of the mist. =D
have you ever felt that the truth doesn't really matter anymore?
the adrenaline rush and thrill, all you have to do, just nodded and agree.
it was suppose to be happy.
it was meant to be happy.
tell me,
how would you be in two places at one time?
tell me,
how could you be so gracefully in joy and tormented at the same time?
tell me,
how did it happen?
tell me,
where did things went wrong?
I am grateful. Thank god! Im out of the mist. =D
August 22, 2008
`
it's funny when..
that the most you cared about is no longer in you
that you've done something so terrible
that it is all mixed up
that you are terrified to speak even then
that you'll be blunt
it doesn't matter..
even you remind yourself of what you could have been
even you confess of every secret moment
even you confess all the lies
no matter how hard you swing
you just cross the line between
being
wrong and right
that the most you cared about is no longer in you
that you've done something so terrible
that it is all mixed up
that you are terrified to speak even then
that you'll be blunt
it doesn't matter..
even you remind yourself of what you could have been
even you confess of every secret moment
even you confess all the lies
no matter how hard you swing
you just cross the line between
being
wrong and right
June 9, 2008
rants
started out so strong feeling so undefeated
feeling like being needed
started out full of hope full of will
its like the time stopped and stayed still
for me time did that for me
let me achieve my goals but those goals didn't get far
the fear the doubt came back
the defeat set in, will power i lacked
what to do in such a mishappen
what to think about something im trapped in
my own vanity my own shadows
my own indiscretions and views of myself
why do i see rotten and misbehaved
im not me im a liar
can i be myself..i was on that path
but stopped all for a useless self indulgence
not working for my living
not working for that fill in
not looking for that something to profit in
laying on my back whereas they're in Berlin
Paris, Tokyo making money living the life
im sitting here wondering why one moment went blank
stopped me in my tracks
simple tips and in clear few facts
but i turn my face away
i turn my face in shame
not wanting whats in store but somehow pursuing for something more
mad words but sane emotions
its not a magic trick or a cauldron mixed with potions
a fact of life that i need to see and learn
learn from your mistakes and not make my own
the way to live the one and only Jesus has shown
people don't care for what i say
people don't sit back and play
its all a serious job everything in life something to do
something to live for and stay true
they call me this they bring me down
but my head stays strong bringing out my smile killing the frown
lyrics from a song inspiration for the soul
something the medias lies had achieved and stole
but i bring it back and stay alive
everybody wants to tear me up but i fight
one punch to the haters one punch to the liars
one punch to those words scripted on ongoing flyers
crazy is all i see when i walk out the door
everybody comes in front of me spitting on my floor
what i want they don't want me to achieve
but i shout to those haters get out leave
leave me be to myself like a calm sea
don't come in my ear and don't say things that make me cry
don't whisper your hateful lies
i don't need this in my life right now
writing my feelings out to show you somehow
drink of water but your still thirsty
you want more digging down getting dirty
what you can't see yourself in the mirror
from people like you i stay clear of
flying like birds looking for their prey
don't come near me cause i never stray
never alone gods with me
showing me the way whispering to pray
you have no affect on this person that is i
don't even come close don't even try
calling me on the phone
your nothing but a clone
one two three of you but one and only me
unique in my own ways
but you and your replays
im like a drug to you
full of pleasure but side effects that kill
now you run why don't you want this come on stay still
break me like a wall but i rise up
erase me like im on paper
cut me open but im back together like im stapled
don't tear me when im like this
don't touch me or you'll see my fist
im tough but i break
and i know that weakness is an excuse
but my weaknesses i will use
to my advantage my lows will be highs
my highs will be higher
you fight water with fire
but i fight fire with fire
tell me the real don't come up with those lies
don't come up with your bulls
don't try your tricks on me i ain't a fool
i bring myself down and i lose my self respect
but i always have enough dignity left
i build that respect and i get twice much back
the respect of others is not what i lack
no matter my falls
i will never again stall
you stop you wait to catch me in your snare
but my life is too good so i don't give a care
i will walk over that trap
and with my force it will snap
break like a twig
smoke up like a cig
respect me im the queen
respect me and ill believe
respect my life and what im worth
respect the one and only god
the one and only savior
cause when he ain't in my way im a failure
peace
feeling like being needed
started out full of hope full of will
its like the time stopped and stayed still
for me time did that for me
let me achieve my goals but those goals didn't get far
the fear the doubt came back
the defeat set in, will power i lacked
what to do in such a mishappen
what to think about something im trapped in
my own vanity my own shadows
my own indiscretions and views of myself
why do i see rotten and misbehaved
im not me im a liar
can i be myself..i was on that path
but stopped all for a useless self indulgence
not working for my living
not working for that fill in
not looking for that something to profit in
laying on my back whereas they're in Berlin
Paris, Tokyo making money living the life
im sitting here wondering why one moment went blank
stopped me in my tracks
simple tips and in clear few facts
but i turn my face away
i turn my face in shame
not wanting whats in store but somehow pursuing for something more
mad words but sane emotions
its not a magic trick or a cauldron mixed with potions
a fact of life that i need to see and learn
learn from your mistakes and not make my own
the way to live the one and only Jesus has shown
people don't care for what i say
people don't sit back and play
its all a serious job everything in life something to do
something to live for and stay true
they call me this they bring me down
but my head stays strong bringing out my smile killing the frown
lyrics from a song inspiration for the soul
something the medias lies had achieved and stole
but i bring it back and stay alive
everybody wants to tear me up but i fight
one punch to the haters one punch to the liars
one punch to those words scripted on ongoing flyers
crazy is all i see when i walk out the door
everybody comes in front of me spitting on my floor
what i want they don't want me to achieve
but i shout to those haters get out leave
leave me be to myself like a calm sea
don't come in my ear and don't say things that make me cry
don't whisper your hateful lies
i don't need this in my life right now
writing my feelings out to show you somehow
drink of water but your still thirsty
you want more digging down getting dirty
what you can't see yourself in the mirror
from people like you i stay clear of
flying like birds looking for their prey
don't come near me cause i never stray
never alone gods with me
showing me the way whispering to pray
you have no affect on this person that is i
don't even come close don't even try
calling me on the phone
your nothing but a clone
one two three of you but one and only me
unique in my own ways
but you and your replays
im like a drug to you
full of pleasure but side effects that kill
now you run why don't you want this come on stay still
break me like a wall but i rise up
erase me like im on paper
cut me open but im back together like im stapled
don't tear me when im like this
don't touch me or you'll see my fist
im tough but i break
and i know that weakness is an excuse
but my weaknesses i will use
to my advantage my lows will be highs
my highs will be higher
you fight water with fire
but i fight fire with fire
tell me the real don't come up with those lies
don't come up with your bulls
don't try your tricks on me i ain't a fool
i bring myself down and i lose my self respect
but i always have enough dignity left
i build that respect and i get twice much back
the respect of others is not what i lack
no matter my falls
i will never again stall
you stop you wait to catch me in your snare
but my life is too good so i don't give a care
i will walk over that trap
and with my force it will snap
break like a twig
smoke up like a cig
respect me im the queen
respect me and ill believe
respect my life and what im worth
respect the one and only god
the one and only savior
cause when he ain't in my way im a failure
peace
March 29, 2008
^^v
sorry. been busy and everything was just chaos all around. been messy, been hectic.. but of cos there is always some comfort around me. thanks. to you. and you of course. it's been great! never been so free and relaxing. never have felt so... um.. outburst of enthusiasm! =)
so pray for me, and i'll keep bugging you there. so just miss me, i'll be there whenever you need me. so don't take away, what we have now.. i've never felt so blissful.
so pray for me, and i'll keep bugging you there. so just miss me, i'll be there whenever you need me. so don't take away, what we have now.. i've never felt so blissful.
January 15, 2008
f l a w l e s s
perfect is never the subject
i'm impressed, by the way you comfort me
i'll just remember
you smiled back at me
can't remember what went wrong last october
i'm still getting used to it
you said that it's all what you need
and since when, it doesn't matter anymore
it was never against you..
i'm impressed, by the way you comfort me
i'll just remember
you smiled back at me
can't remember what went wrong last october
i'm still getting used to it
you said that it's all what you need
and since when, it doesn't matter anymore
it was never against you..
January 2, 2008
[^^]
happy happy happy new year
may the greatest fear, gone.
may the people of joy, fly.
maybe you and me,
will be if it is to be.
cheers~
one's not half two. It's two are halves of one:
which halves reintegrating,shall occur
no death and any quantity;
but than all numerable mosts the actual more
minds ignorant of stern miraculous
this every truth-beware of heartless them
(given the scalpel,they dissect a kiss;
or,sold the reason,they undream a dream)
deep in dark least ourselves remembering
love only rides his year.
All lose,whole find
may the greatest fear, gone.
may the people of joy, fly.
maybe you and me,
will be if it is to be.
cheers~
one's not half two. It's two are halves of one:
which halves reintegrating,shall occur
no death and any quantity;
but than all numerable mosts the actual more
minds ignorant of stern miraculous
this every truth-beware of heartless them
(given the scalpel,they dissect a kiss;
or,sold the reason,they undream a dream)
deep in dark least ourselves remembering
love only rides his year.
All lose,whole find
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