Nothing just happens, it's all part of a plan

I dont know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental like on a breeze, but I, I think maybe its both. Maybe both happening at the same time.

Sometimes it would stop raining long enough for the stars to come out. And then it was nice. It was like just before the sun goes to bed down on the bay. There was over a million sparkles on the water. Like that mountain lake. It was so clear. It looks like there were two skies, one on top of the other. And in the desert, when the sun comes up, I couldnt tell where heavens stopped and the earth began. It was so beautiful. And I wish you could have been there with me.

Someone always said to me, I have got to put the past behind me before I can move on. And I think thats what my running was all about. I had run for three years. And when I got here, I figured since I'd gone this far, I might as well just not turn back, keep right on going.

Im not a smart girl, but I know I have a heart. Im just gonna have to figure this out for myself. Life is a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get.

I miss you..
If theres anything you need, I wont be far away

FG

Young and ___________

Love is really nothing but a dream that keeps waking me. For all of my trying, we still end up dying. Tell me where has that taken me? I am just about to set fire to everything I see. I want you so bad, I'll go back on the things I believe. There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me.

I'm tired. Yhink I'll just sleep in my clothes on the floor or maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours.

How can it be?

I knew I wouldn't forget you

I shouldn't love you but i want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but i can't move
I can't look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
Just so you know
This feelings takin control
Of me and i can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Though you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But i don't want to
I just gotta say it all before you go
It's gettin hard to
Be around you
Theres so much i can't say
And do you want me to hide the feelings
And look away
And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not
Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop
This emptyness is killin me
I'm wonderin why i've waited so long
Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken
Now i'm waitin here
Been waitin here

Jesse McCartney

i do it for love

i know that it's your soul, and get down to the heart of it, no it's my heart, you're shit out of your luck, don't make me tell you again
i am aiming to be somebody that somebody trusts with her delicate soul
i dont claim to know much except soon as you start to make room for the parts that arent you, it gets harder to bloom in a garden

youre killing me sweetly
started as a flicker, meant to be a flame
skin has gotten thicker, but it burns the same
still a baby in a cradle, got to take my first fall
baby's getting next to nowhere with a back against the wall
you meant to make me happy, make me sad
want to make it better, better so bad
but save your resolutions for your never new year
there is only one solution i can see here

you're all I ever could need
only one good thing worth trying to be and it's....

Proverbs 12:5-7

The thoughts of the righteous are right: but the counsels of the wicked are deceit.
The words of the wicked are to lie in wait for blood: but the mouth of the upright shall deliver them.
The wicked are overthrown, and are not: but the house of the righteous shall stand.

"As a face reflects in water, so the heart reflects the real person."

x-ray

i did went for x-ray. and guess what? i found rabbit instead of butterflies in my stomach. that's not really scarey aye, the part where i need to let the doc scan through was the climax tho. heh.
ok. case-file 100109351, stated that heart is in superb immaculate condition. there is no need for exchange or surgery whatsoever. just need to eat the meds regularly.

let the bed time rolls!