rants

started out so strong feeling so undefeated
feeling like being needed
started out full of hope full of will
its like the time stopped and stayed still
for me time did that for me
let me achieve my goals but those goals didn't get far
the fear the doubt came back
the defeat set in, will power i lacked
what to do in such a mishappen
what to think about something im trapped in
my own vanity my own shadows
my own indiscretions and views of myself
why do i see rotten and misbehaved
im not me im a liar
can i be myself..i was on that path
but stopped all for a useless self indulgence
not working for my living
not working for that fill in
not looking for that something to profit in
laying on my back whereas they're in Berlin
Paris, Tokyo making money living the life
im sitting here wondering why one moment went blank
stopped me in my tracks
simple tips and in clear few facts
but i turn my face away
i turn my face in shame
not wanting whats in store but somehow pursuing for something more
mad words but sane emotions
its not a magic trick or a cauldron mixed with potions
a fact of life that i need to see and learn
learn from your mistakes and not make my own
the way to live the one and only Jesus has shown
people don't care for what i say
people don't sit back and play
its all a serious job everything in life something to do
something to live for and stay true
they call me this they bring me down
but my head stays strong bringing out my smile killing the frown
lyrics from a song inspiration for the soul
something the medias lies had achieved and stole
but i bring it back and stay alive
everybody wants to tear me up but i fight
one punch to the haters one punch to the liars
one punch to those words scripted on ongoing flyers
crazy is all i see when i walk out the door
everybody comes in front of me spitting on my floor
what i want they don't want me to achieve
but i shout to those haters get out leave
leave me be to myself like a calm sea
don't come in my ear and don't say things that make me cry
don't whisper your hateful lies
i don't need this in my life right now
writing my feelings out to show you somehow
drink of water but your still thirsty
you want more digging down getting dirty
what you can't see yourself in the mirror
from people like you i stay clear of
flying like birds looking for their prey
don't come near me cause i never stray
never alone gods with me
showing me the way whispering to pray
you have no affect on this person that is i
don't even come close don't even try
calling me on the phone
your nothing but a clone
one two three of you but one and only me
unique in my own ways
but you and your replays
im like a drug to you
full of pleasure but side effects that kill
now you run why don't you want this come on stay still
break me like a wall but i rise up
erase me like im on paper
cut me open but im back together like im stapled
don't tear me when im like this
don't touch me or you'll see my fist
im tough but i break
and i know that weakness is an excuse
but my weaknesses i will use
to my advantage my lows will be highs
my highs will be higher
you fight water with fire
but i fight fire with fire
tell me the real don't come up with those lies
don't come up with your bulls
don't try your tricks on me i ain't a fool
i bring myself down and i lose my self respect
but i always have enough dignity left
i build that respect and i get twice much back
the respect of others is not what i lack
no matter my falls
i will never again stall
you stop you wait to catch me in your snare
but my life is too good so i don't give a care
i will walk over that trap
and with my force it will snap
break like a twig
smoke up like a cig
respect me im the queen
respect me and ill believe
respect my life and what im worth
respect the one and only god
the one and only savior
cause when he ain't in my way im a failure
peace