passion?

Philandering once is enough.

sand surfing was AWESOME!!!!

yea! cross this off my list of things to do in Australia!

do not look for reasons why

Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?

别把冲动当成理由

感觉好像昨天
其实过了一年
心中还是在挂念
是巧合的遇见
我和你
我们是否应该要回头
曾经有的一切
都慢慢流走
我在默默的思念
我常提醒自己
我不应该

你想的是要离开

x-ray

i did went for x-ray. and guess what? i found rabbit instead of butterflies in my stomach. that's not really scarey aye, the part where i need to let the doc scan through was the climax tho. heh.
ok. case-file 100109351, stated that heart is in superb immaculate condition. there is no need for exchange or surgery whatsoever. just need to eat the meds regularly.

let the bed time rolls!

give me my heart back

“The first week?” He turned again to the pages of his diary, calculating rapidly under his breath. “The first week, did you say?” He threw back his head with a long laugh.
“For mercy’s sake what’s the matter?”
“Nothing’s the matter, except that I’m going to be married in a month.”

my beating heart belongs to no one

i sent a picture to you
did it go through?
i walked for miles til i found you
im here to honor you
with every breath that i am worth
so if you dare to second guess
you can rest assured

if i lose everything in the fire
did i ever make it through?

感謝那個日期，身旁的人是你

"And I was so happy at being among my own people that everyone I met seemed kind and good, and glad to see me.
But from the very beginning, I felt there was no one as kind as you; no one who gave me reasons that I understood for doing what at first seemed so hard and—unnecessary."

i miss you baby

this is where i fall

when something begins, you generally have no idea how its going to end.
so, did you say it?
"i love you"
"i don't ever wanna live without you"
"you changed my life"
did you say it?? make a plan, set a goal, work towards it. but every now and then, look around you...
cos..
this is it.

it might all be gone tomorrow.

distance can determine so many things
from new love to wedding rings
from stay or say goodbyes
i've heard the stories of failure and glories
the warnings of ones who will never ever try again
i promise you that we'll make it through

-Jeremy Manongdo

happy birthday

"Sometimes our light goes out but is blown into flame by another human being. Each of us owes deepest thanks to those who have rekindled this light."



i love you.

the breaking point, is the starting line? or sign of weakness

别为一时的孤寂
一时的空虚
一时需要关心
或一时什么的
才一时想起我
才一时抱紧我

我不爱一时一时的你
也不当一时一时的自己

我要你无时无刻都把我放在心里
不需要理由地把彼此紧抱在怀里

更别在最感性的时候提醒我
千万不要爱上多时理性的你
too bad我还是个傻瓜
还是个分不清真假的傻瓜

到了最后的自作还是自受
得不到你的心也失去了我们的情

-anonymous

i wonder why

i was full by your count
i was lost but your fool
was a long visit wrong?
say you are the only
so many foreign worlds
so relatively fucked
so ready for us

teased by your blouse
spit out by your mouth
i was loud by your lowered
seminary sold
tear on tail on
take all on the wind on
the soft bloody nose
sign another floor...
the so many territories
ready to reform
don't let it form us

so did he foil is 'own?
is he ready to reform?
so many for us


-Bon Iver

毕竟，没有约定的爱情或友情，有点太单调了。

男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，
因为20多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点,
没钱、没地位，没房、没车、没事业，不能独立又不想依赖，挣扎着彷徨着，寻找自己的位置！
而20多岁的女人却是她生命中最灿烂的时候;

男人要永远感谢在他20多岁的时候曾经陪在他身边的女人，
因为20多岁的男人还很“懵懂”，
而20多岁的女人却很灿烂,
20多岁的男人处在一生中的最低点，
而20多岁的女人却是她的大好华年；

20多岁的男人很不知珍惜，
而20多岁的女人最需要被珍惜；

20多岁的男人自卑到极点所以非常自负，
而20多岁的女人却在努力建立他的自信；

20多岁的男人不懂爱，不会爱却需要爱，
而20多岁的女人需要被爱，需要关怀，却要付出呵护付出关怀；

20多岁的男人没钱、没事业，但有欲望
而20多岁的女人空守着自己的韶光不再；

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的年华，这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。
男孩子在20多岁时遇见了一个年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，因为这个女孩是用自
己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最暗淡的日子！！！

女孩只要陪他走过，女孩会永远幸福下去~~~
当女孩对你撒娇甚至无理取闹时，请男孩不要烦恼女孩，因为她们有道理这样，我们没理由烦恼，我们要做的就是很理解很理解，保护好这位天使，等我们到了30岁，正当我们最美丽的时候，也请你不要放开这位曾经的天使！！！ 20多岁的男人不知道珍惜,不知道感恩.

当他们30多岁的时候,事业有成,成熟稳重.开始嫌弃曾经陪伴过他,但不再年轻的女人.
有人说男人其实是最专一的.因为从20岁到80岁的男人都喜欢20岁左右年轻漂亮的女人.
这是个笑话,但也是个事实.有人说现在的年轻女孩都很现实,眼中没有爱情.
称着年轻嫁个有钱的,一辈子也就有个归宿了.

男人有时好比洋葱,要想看到洋葱的心就需要一层一层去剥。
但是女人在剥的过程会不断流泪剥到最后才知道，

原来洋葱是没有心的.

一首歌,让你带回去

if everything was everything
but everything is over
everything could be everything
if only we were older
and how i lost you
i was feeling low
and you'll never know
but i saw her face
i knew that it was wrong
where everything was everything
but everything is over
everything was everything
but its the last show
everything could be everything
but its time to say goodbye

its no surprise that i got lost

Fusari, Rob
Germanotta, Stefani

ungodly hour

Minolta SRT100b 50mm ; f/8

I'm in love with my own sins

let us live in joy, not hating those who hate us.
among those who hate us, we live free of hate.
let us live in joy,
free from disease among those who are diseased.
among those who are diseased, let us live free of disease.
let us live in joy, free from greed among the greedy.
among those who are greedy, we live free of greed.

though we possess nothing.
let us live feeding on joy, like the bright gods.

victory breeds hate, for the conquered is unhappy.
whoever has given up victory and defeat
is content and lives joyfully.

there is no fire like lust, no misfortune like hate;
there is no pain like this body;
there is no joy higher than peace.

craving is the worst disease;
disharmony is the greatest sorrow.
the one who knows this truly
knows that nirvana is the highest bliss.

health is the greatest gift;
contentment is the greatest wealth;
trusting is the best relationship;
nirvana is the highest joy.

whoever has tasted the sweetness
of solitude and tranquillity
becomes free from fear and sin
while drinking the sweetness of the truth.
the sight of the noble is good;
to live with them is always joyful.

whoever does not see fools will always be happy.
whoever associates with fools suffers a long time.
being with fools, as with an enemy, is always painful.

being with the wise, like meeting with family, is joyful.
therefore, one should follow the wise, the intelligent,
the learned, the patient, the dutiful, the noble;
one should follow the good and wise,
as the moon follows the path of the stars.

- Lord Buddha

my song for you, baby!

your song

omg, so emo neh~

to the bone

lying to you is a river of sin
your metaphores, your silent calls
your feelings are too real
let them spew, a fall from grace
would do us good today
we're late, but not in the same way
your eyes have too many colours and I can only try
your energy could be running low
now the juice is dry
images we cannot leave behind
like two riversides we roll back
with your love you had today

-Live

constant cry

"The very good people didn’t convince me; I felt they’d never been tempted. But you knew; you understood; you had felt the world outside tugging at one with all its golden hands—and yet you hated the things it asks of one; you hated happiness bought by disloyalty and cruelty and indifference. That was what I’d never known before—and it’s better than anything I’ve known."

what action is bearable to you?

truth hurts, lies worse

the beginning of invisible life is
to not foreseen what lies beneath the surface

if white had not been used
as color of the ink
it only shows itself
to those who never blink

wrong sentence, right.

signing a piece of paper
that might change
how you'd become

would you?

有一首歌是这样唱着

最近眼睛很累
突然觉得很纳闷
我的生活会变得怎样？

或许我什么都没有
一个人　冷冷的　静静的
最唯有的温度
藏在脑海深处　
那调皮的回顾

tricky treat

thank you

bad bad ted..

bad performance

leads to disappointment

ted says it's ok to be rough
ted says it's ok to be dumb
ted says it's ok to be a beast

i trusted you

what goes around
comes around
your day is soon to come

i'll bite

everybody is so fake
everything is such a mess

whisper of the dawn

the soulful morning smile
is a treasure of the mind
and heart alike

the morning light
feeds our hearts

and if your nature
to be happy
you will swim away along the soft trails
for hours, your imagination
alighting everywhere

and if your spirit
carries within it
the thorn
that is heavier than lead
somewhere deep within you
a beast shouting at the earth
is exactly what it wanted

if it's all you can do
to keep on trudging
whether or not
you have ever dared to be happy
whether or not
you have ever dared to pray

what is the first thing you do in the morning?

can i be your shadow?

i will come to you

sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
and you don't know how or why
but you've lost your way
have no fear when your tears are falling
i will hear you calling
and i swear i will be there come what may
cause even if we cant be together
we will be friends now and forever
we all need somebody we can turn to
someone who will always understand
so if you feel that your soul is dying
and you need the strength to keep trying
i will reach out and take your hand

-hanson

男人，哭吧！

i know what you're doing
i see it all to clear
i only taste the saline when i kiss away your tears

i believed in your confusion
you were so completely torn
well it must have been that yesterday was the day that i was born
there's not much to examine
there's nothing left to hide
you really can't be serious if you have to ask me why

we're changing the subject
we're turning away
away from the heart of it all

imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting
a fool for another day
but i don't suppose it's worth the price
the price that i would pay
but i'm thinking it over anyway

you say you are happy
do you think this is fun?

you say this is living
you feel so alive
well you know everything dies

even my wonder
even my fear
only amount to a couple of tears

it don't seem that different cause nothing has changed
i try to remember
when we were just running in place
but even your best ones can put me to sleep
what i am saying or trying to say
is that there must be a better way

it's already in you
it's already there
you may disagree
but i don't really care

tell me all your wildest dreams
you don't really care
you don't know what they mean

leaving me cold thought they're not really mine
did you ever find out
what's at the heart of us?

everyone keeps asking, what's it all about?
i used to be so certain and i can't figure out
what is this attraction?
i only feel the pain
there's nothing left to reason and only you to blame
will it ever change?

i don't know

thoughts

"Strange how a single conversation can change you. Or maybe it only seems that way in retrospect. A year passes and you know you feel differently, but you’re not sure what or why or how, so your mind casts back for something that might give that difference shape: a word, a glance, a touch."

-Barack Obama

people change & forgot to tell each other

less than one minute old
i cant believe what God has done
life and love are the same
it could have not been done
without you who conceive the one
thats so very lovely made from love

此刻

雨天

心情

极差

真的
好想家。。。

fly-by!

can't wait for Christmas~!

what makes you feel alive

당신을 사랑합니다

feeling lousy

the dawn is breaking
a light shining through
you're barely waking
and I'm tangled up in you

i'm open, you're closed
where i follow, you'll go
i worry i won't see your face
light up again

even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
even the stars refuse to shine
out of the back you fall in time
i somehow find you and i collide

i'm quiet you know
you make a first impression
i've found i'm scared to know

don't stop here
i lost my place
i'm close behind

i'm your stalker

have a great trip. cheers!

please tell me why

떠나지 말아요

부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디
부디

머무름

frustration

if i had a shiny gun
i could have a world of fun
speeding bullets through the brains
of the folk who give me pains

or had i some poison gas
i could make the moments pass
bumping off a number of
people whom i do not love

but i have no lethal weapon
thus does FATE our pleasure step on!
so they still are quick and well
who should be
by rights
in
HELL!!!

winter?

running the race
like a mouse in a cage
getting nowhere but i'm trying
forging ahead
but i'm stuck in the bed
that i made so i'm lying

but if you keep real close
if you stay real close
i will reach you

i'm down to a whisper
in a daydream on a hill
shut down to a whisper
can you hear me still

i'm so very tired
i've stopped trying to find
any peace in my mind
because it tangles the wires

the sound tires on my lips
to fade away into forgetting

heartless

i look into your eyes
i want to get to know you
and then you make this noise
and its apparent it's all over

your supposed to care but all you do is take

familiar words for familiar situation between unfamiliar individual with unfamiliar feelings?

有時候覺得
沒什麼不同
有時候想放手
向現實低頭
卻沒有把握
因為還是會　
有想他的一股冲动

choke!

我

车祸了。。。

666

cigarettes & coffee

it's early in the morning
about a quarter till 3
i'm sitting here talking with you
now
and to tell you that
i've been so satisfied
since i met you
all the places that i've been around
and all the good looking boys i've met
they just don't seem to fit in
knowing this particularly sad, yeah
but it seemed so natural
that you and i are here
just talking over cigarettes and drinking coffee
and whole my heart cries out

if you would take things under consideration
and walk down this hour with me
and i would love it
and i'll like to show you, well
i've known nothing but good old joy
since i met you

i would love to have another drink of coffee, now
and please, help me smoke this one more cigarette, now
i don't want no cream and sugar
but just let me enjoy
help me to enjoy
this good time that we'll have

and we don't, we don't want nothing but joy
nothing but joy...

-Otis Redding

reasons

give me a reason to fall in love
take my hand and let's dance
give me a reason to make me smile
cause i think i forgot how

i wanna fall asleep with you tonight
i wanna know that i am safe when you hold me tight
i wanna feel like i wanna feel forever

girls need attention, and boys need us
so let's make everybody glad
that they have each other in each others arms
oh let's make everybody glad

i wanna dream away with you tonight
we can go anywhere you would like

i want you.

why?

you're still captivating even though it's been so long
what went wrong
cause now you march to the beat of different song
i try to understand that we needed space

when did you think to just give up?

当你...

it's amazing how you can speak right through my heart
i could never explain what i hear
what has been said
between your heart
& mine

3am

our conversation got boring
you said you were going to bed soon
i was hoping that i could creep in
&& i would pretend it was the room got colder
&& we move closer together
started talking about the weather
you said tomorrow would be fun
and we could watch a place in the sun

let's just stay
we'll be laughing all the way

let's see how it goes

once in awhile, when it's good

if i have the power...

no, i am not color blind

i know the world is black & white
but i just can't sleep
don't know how else to say it

i wanna get off & go home again

one length away
from fighting life out of my own
i just can't take the speed
i know i can't
but honestly

help me understand

no one here

thank god this much is real
thank god this much is true

i will never meet your expectation
i will take you to the point of never believing in me
i will make you tired of me

just because i can

i promise?

don't you hate it when the world turn and turn so fast that you couldn't even stand straight?
no, this has nothing to do with what i want to say...

don't ever start,
at least you won't have to stop,
or choose to cease it?

it's free

the first hand information makes the most of interpretation. you would not notice any flaws, you would not even have doubts. don't you?
but why?

bear this constant rant

the reason i am writing this for all these while, is to justify what i have done to my life and truly understand that consequences i have to bare, eventually.

i have made silly mistakes, i know.
but does this mean that i have no rights to feel alright?
does this mean that i have no more freedom of choosing my own path?
does this mean that i have to give up everything, even you?
does this even mean that i can't save the best for last?

i hate to say this,
i know i am not passionate,
i know i am not tolerate enough,
i know i can't endure large amount of anxiety,
and i know, i need a large doses of adrenaline shots..
and it's all from
you

when i least expected it ...

in life, there is a lot of great moments, and they made life worth living.
but here's the thing, moment past,
and lurking just around the corner of the moments,
is a cruel, unshaven bastard named REALITY.

the night that it started late...

so that's it. the look of joy in someone's eyes.
it didn't go great.
but life has plenty of good parts, it's the rough part that makes you thankful that you have people to share it with.

dream on babe

sometime awhile ago, i had this huge crush on SLR & lomography. i even manage to bought one and has been keeping 'em as a pet.

one of them. looks so much like a toy than a camera. yea, right! this is so eco-friendly. i don't need to spend money on batteries. just a click away& i'll get my fantastic photo.

pretty much like this.
so yeah, here i am, thinking of the resemblance of a compact camera which i am currently so inlove with -- with extraordinary WHITE body *drools*

so much of the enthusiasm of getting my hands on one of them, still a resistance of the temptations has to be control, tied & buried.

ah, let the good time rolls ...

gone

now
what is the evidence of
EXISTENCE ?

疯

have to call it a day.
weekend is coming.
rush rush rush...
how i wish time has some button to pause & play!

drink it down down down

midnight.

before tonight.

gonna
ease
the
pain.

falling for more, drink it down before it's driving me insane

u make me feel

pardon me for the sound quality.



i heart you

我是懒人

i was thinking to spend my 3 days weekend on my lab report along with the rocks matter.
& i wish i can burn all the notes!

well it turn out to be that i've spent my weekend discovering how to be a chef! *yay*

gosh im sure gonna put on weight now -_-"

&& i see your dirty face *grin*

you are "the HOT-ness"!!!

*drools*
*faint*

please say you love me?

a pretty day
is here and away

i know the night is not the same as the day
that all things are different,
that the things of the night cannot be explained in the day,
because they do not then exist,
and the night can be a dreadful time for lonely people once their loneliness has started

today
is only one day in all the days that will ever be.
but what will happen in all the other days
that ever come can depend on what you do today.

As you get older it is harder to have heroes, but it is sort of necessary.

Ernest Hemingway

The Show - Lenka

to you who are silent,

this is the garden
colors come and go
somewhere it is spring
sometimes people are in real
forgetting why, remember how
forgetting seem, remember so
forgetting if, remember yes
whatever mind may comprehend, remember seek
forgetting find

-e.e.cummings

;p

Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk.
That will teach you to keep your mouth shut.

Ernest Hemingway

waiting for the train...

today things are so much more better. i want to have better days like this. i tried to hold on to what i have now. you can't really felt anything by now, yea at least at my state. all the truth were the last words i have. and before this, what were i doing? what have i turn into? is there anything left for me? yes yes i know i have everything i've been waiting for. truth to be told, i am glad, i know i have you =)

i am well

what difference it makes today?

it's you ! you make my day different !!!

病

missing someone


is very much like being with someone


e x c e p t . . .



you have to do it by



y o u r s e l f

pushing on to the end of april

我好累。。


save
me,

would
you
please......

dedicated to wcyong

being able to tilt and think about "what if.." question. its freaking cold that night. missed those warmth and laughter that im used to.

some resemblance. 月好远，好圆。。

explain unconfirmity?

hardly a point of view

McDonalds

re: 我真的爱错

Go - Hanson

just a thought. =)

baby blue

your thinking so complicated
i've had it all up to here
but its so overrated
love and hate it
wouldn't trade it
love me jaded

Jaded (Acoustic) - Aerosmith

"you're so jaded
cause im the one that jaded you"

心

please
stop
torturing
me

all i need was a call that never came

oh god

i can't get through
i've been trying hard to reach you cos i don't know what to do
oh i can't believe it's true
im so scared for the future
i wanna talk to you

where will i be?
you could take a picture of something you see
or do something that's never been done

i feel like i've been here before
told anyone who will listen but still feel ignored
nothing really make sense
but what the heck
talk to me...

你好吗？

昔日佳人已离去，秋枫红叶寄相思

red-rag & pink-flag

you who live in my heart

woke me up and alight
roaming for some resting needs
you beg for things seen
and i beg for emotions unseen

my heart is weighing

something is killing me mad
i need the solace of a language
that shall enter my person caged
and free me to lands amazed

今日

好想你
回想起往日光陰
淚難禁